Thursday, August 27, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
So I finally found her on facebook. At first glance she looked the same, only married. Awesome. Then after some digging on her profile (seriously, it was basically hidden) I see she had a baby girl in April. I'm happy for her. I am. But still feeling defeated since K is pregnant. Well not technically anymore-she gave birth 9 hours ago! But so yeah, S saw K and I were still friends, so they became friends. And then all hell broke loose. Other teammates saw that we were all becoming friends (stupid fb, all up in everyone's biz). So now in a matter of like 2 weeks, I have had three other teammates become my friends. And guess what?! They have all given birth within the last 7 months, one with another due with #2 in January. WTF.
And they're all "omg we have to have play dates" and "i can't believe we all have kids" blahfuckingblah. Stupid me. I shouldn't have friended S and therefore everyone else wouldn't have befriended everyone else again either. Why the fuck did I want to be the social organizer again?? I'm not even that pleasant anymore, lol.
I tried to explain how I felt to my SIL. She tries...but since she isn't in my position, she sometimes doesn't word things nicely enough for my over-hormonal IF ears. I tried to explain how I felt completely left behind. I do. I'm so bitter and so unfuckingbelievably jealous. I managed to NOT take it out on (my) K. So that was positive. I managed to only sniffle and let a few tears come down. So that was good. How terrible of a person am I that I read their profiles and see that 3 out of the 5 of them aren't married and I get even more pissed. To each their own and in my normal everyday sane frame of mind I have absolutely nothing wrong with single parenthood. I guess I feel that we are more ready, we want it more, we have been trying longer than any of them (and no, i have no idea if three of them have had probs, K and S didn't, I know for sure)?? I feel like shit for thinking this way. I feel like a bitter bitch. Fuck IF. Damn Facebook.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
In other news, well not really news, but updates I guess I should say. I got a call from my old boss about my job being open at one of our sister papers! HR was contacted and they are happy that I am interested in the position. It hasn't even been posted internally, so that's a good sign. I reallllly hope I get a call from them soon.
I also have a wild idea in my head...but I will have to ellaborate on that more later. it's so far fetched, I will sound like a crazy person, lol. It involves us moving....back to Florida. Well, it would be back for me, K has never lived there. We'll see how this plays out. I don't hold out much hope for it to work out, but it is fun to dream.
Friday, August 14, 2009
So in honor of that...I realized something: I haven't really posted anything too pet related on here! That surprised me. I am a huuuuge animal lover. One day I hope to have enough land and a big enough house to fill it with dogs, cats, a pig (yes, I want a pig and his name will be Hamlet, Hammy for short...i have no idea why I want one so bad, but I do) a horse...maybe a bunny too. In short, I am nuts :o) So this post is about my furry babies. Meet my kids:
Remy came to us via our local Humane Society. He was actually already named Remington so we felt he was just calling for us to adopt him. He is the sweetest, most laid back, easy going cat I have ever had. Nothing seems to phase him. He will beg for whatever you are eating, but as soon as you give it to him, he doesn't want it. He loves his mommy and me time, as I call it. He has to sneak it in there with his bratty little sister ;o) Everyone who meets him wants him. No joke. they can't believe how cool he is. He's my guy. I love my Rem. His nicknames include: Remy, Remmers, Remy Roo.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Lets see if this works, I'm entering the break code. Sweet! It appears to have worked. Annoying but whatever. I really don't understand why it does that every now and again. Ok, back to books for a sec.
I had added a pic of the next book, Dropped Dead Stitch by Maggie Sefton and I reviewed it. Then I hit preview and it disappeared. So I'm skipping the pic, hope you don't mind. This was the latest edition to the knitting mystery series by this author. I enjoy reading them. They are light, fun to read books. Nothing challenging about them, but I think that's ok. This book strays from the normal circumstances. I wouldn't say it was my favorite of all the books, but I still enjoyed it. As part of the summer book challenge I'm doing, this fit into my "do an activity that the characters do in the book." In all the other books the main character Kelly, has been learning to knit/continued to knit. In this book she learns how to crochet. I am a beginning/intermediate crocheter myself so I picked up my needle and yarn and started in on another baby blanket.
I am very hot and cold with all my various hobbies. Once I start one, it's like I'm obsessed with that. Then I move on again, lol. Lately it's been reading but I know that I have a ton of gifts I want to get in for Christmas, birthdays, new baby, etc in the next few months. I should *probably* get on that.....
Monday, August 10, 2009
I've finished up
Sleeping Freshman Never Lie by David Lubar
Dropped Dead Stitch by Maggie Sefton
Mistaken Identity by the Van Ryn & Cerak families
and I've started in on Fire Sale by Sara Paretsky.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
So I posted on the tttc board about our tenative plans. 1) I am going back to school 2) i want to lose some lbs and we will continue with monitered clomid cycles for now. I'm still waiting on my first period since the d&c. I finished up the last of my progestin on Sunday night so they say if I haven't gotten AF after 7 days from the last pill, to call and we'll either do a higer dosage or try something else. Blah blah blah. 3) we might be able to move home sooner than I thought!!!
The week before last Christmas my great uncle (grandpa's brother on my mom's side) passed away. Since then his house has been vacant. It's in a decent area, in the very near west suburbs of Chicago. My mom told me yesterday that her and my stepdad are thinking of buying it as an investment. Which she then told me that we could rent from them, with all our rent going towards the eventual down payment if we wanted to buy it from them. This sort of works out perfect for us. We would get to rehab it, live in a centralized location and be HOME! K is planning on putting his resume in at his dad's company. He needs this experience because his dad works for an aerospace company (his dad makes some of the apache helicopters and things like that). Anyway, our end goal is to get down to Dallas or Orlando with either Bell or Lockhead Martin...and they love K's resume....except he has no aerospace experience. Defense yes, but not aero. So if he could work with his dad for a year or two, then we should be set.
I really don't want to get ahead of myself. I really don't. But I am sooooooooo holding out hope for this. I want to be home. The only thing that makes me nervous is the fact that K's job right now is doing good. They just landed a billion dollar gov't contract and K has been busy with that. I don't want to rock the boat. But at the same time, the only thing keeping us up here is K's job. Granted---that is a Huge deal in this economy. I totally get that. But if nothing else in our lives is "working right" then what price are we really paying to be here?
Monday, August 3, 2009
On top of that, I feel like I have to be playing hostess to K's little brother who has been up here on a "vacation." He's only 16 and came up here last summer for two weeks and he wanted to come up again this summer. Of course we said yes before I lost my job. Then I felt bad about saying that he should stay home. It costs us money and I feel like I am constantly having to make sure that he's not bored or that I am ignoring him. Honestly I know that he could care less, he's really easy going and to him, watching 8 hours of ESPN is fine with him but I still feel bad since I am at home, ya know? Oh well. Thursday night we go home and he goes home too. It's been fun having him, but at the same time, I'll feel slightly relieved once he is home (but then I'll miss his company of course!!! ;o) )
We tried to go look for cars this weekend but the lots are all empty from cash for clunkers. I love my old blazer...but I know it is needing a ton of work. Before I lost my job we had already been looking at new cars once we found out about C4Cs we got serious. Now of course, everything is up in the air and we couldn't jump right on it due to no job. I wish we would have tried anyway. I wonder how much money we have to drop into my truck...i'm guessing at least $500. Which is less than two months of car payments, so in the end, we're probably better...we just wanted to take advantage of a trade in that is more than what it is worth to begin with.
I am looking forward to dinner tonight :o) I am making my sloppy joes. We made them last week and only made a pound...should have been more for sure! So tonight is 2lbs. I like mine spicey so I throw a bunch of seasonings into it: tons of crushed red peppers, cajon seasoning, creole seasoning, touch of garlic powder, laury's seasoning salt, onions, and sometimes celery if I'm in the mood (none in the fridge for tonight though). I can't wait-especially for leftovers tomorrow! Mmm mmm mmm