Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Sickness

Everyone in my office has been a revolving door of sickness the last few weeks. Before we went down for halloween I started getting the beginnings of a cold, but then it never really went anywhere. Cool with me. Then last night, well technically 1:45 this morning, I woke up and had to run to the bathroom. Img was my stomach upset. It was a hurting sort of churning feeling. 30 minutes later I took a swip of Pepto and went to bed. I woke up to a brown tongue (which I frantically googled) and I was about to walk out the door when my stomach gurgled and back to the bathroom I went. I made it a half day at work. I just came home at lunch to rest and get better. I really dont want this to turn into something more. I hate being sick!

On the IF front...I have made my first acupunture appointment for next week! I am really excited about it. From speaking to my acupunturist, H, she seems like a great fit. SHe has suffered through IF herself and she just had her first child. She also wanted to reassure me that even if I didn't continue with acu, that she is a great source of information of local IF related places. I told her how I have been feeling very frustrated with my dr and how I feel like we are not getting anywhere in terms of treatment. Well H told me about a clinic in the next major town north of me (about 30 min) and how they were a lot less expensive compared to where I have been going! Since we are all OOP, I called immediately and I have a 15 min consult with the nurse next week as well. So yeah...very busy IF week coming up! This cycle is a complete bust. I didn't ovulate, what else is new. I'm just waiting on AF yet again. Today is cd31 and counting. Just come again already. Sheesh.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

How is it Novembe?!?

I was lucky enough to get last Thursday and Friday off of work so we headed down for a long weekend in Chicago. It was so great to just do nothing, yet everything we wanted while at home. Sure I didn't see everyone, but just the fact that I got in the main people without feeling like I was rushing my visits was awesome. Next up is another long weekend for Turkey Day. Yum Yum! This weekend the in-laws are up. Didn't they get enough of us?? gosh, lol! The following weekend is a jammie weekend. I do not plan on doing anything other than sleeping, studying, watching tv all while never getting dressed in real clothes. I can't wait for that!! I feel like I haven't been able to relax at home for about a month now due to classes, work, people up, us down, etc.

I registered for four classes next semester. I must be insane. I am pulling my hair out with two classes...but I have to get it done. I'm determined now. I don't want to be in my field anymore. I find every excuse to do enough at work to get praise, but not as much as I know I could do just simply because I don't feel like it. I know that's terrible, but that's how I feel. I'm only slightly embarrassed by that.

I finally got back on the boards today during the day. God I feel like a stranger on them. Wierd how one month being in and out will change things for you. I picked up a new book to read regarding infertility. I am very interested in starting accupunture and combining both Eastern and Western methods in our journey. The book is called The Infertility Cure by Radine Lewis, Ph.D. So far I have found it interesting. We have now reached two full years of trying to conceive. It sucks. I'm upset, pissed, sad, overly drained...the list goes on and on. This pointless stupid cycle of clomid 100 mg only cycle can kiss my ass. K and I are seriously thinking about me having to drive down to Milwaukee to get to a real IF specialist. It's just sooo wonderful living an area where there is no RE to be seen ::insert sarcasim:: I'm just tired of it all. Get me pregnant already dammit!